Hey everyone. It’s been a while since I’ve updated this thing, but I’ve been working really hard to write Confessions of a Fat Girl. For some reason it’s probably the hardest book I’ve ever wrote and not because I don’t know what’s going to happen, but because I really relate to the plight of my protagonists. Sometimes I just have to stop and takes breaks because of the emotional blockage that builds up before I just force myself through it. So there’s that and then there’s the fact that I started writing Star Wars fanfiction again. So when I have that emotional blockage, I just write fanfiction. Then I’m in the process of looking for a job and… well, there’s just a whole lot going on, but to rant about my personal problems isn’t why I’m here.
I’m here to talk about that title. The title that might be a little controversial. That title that says that I don’t like the plus sized model ads. I can imagine initial reactions to that. So you’re a body shamer, you don’t believe clothing should be marketed to bigger woman, you’re playing into and being affected by so-called normalized expectations of feminine beauty that men have been using as one of the ways to marginalize women. Sigh. No. I’m not. It’s the very opposite actually. Not only do my size 14 non-slender legs, big butt, and huge arms disagree with you, but it’s also because I reject normalized expectations of feminine beauty that men have been using as a way to marginalize women that I don’t like the so-called plus sized model industry nor the ads.
I’ve struggled with my weight my entire life people. I struggle with it now. Even at my smallest weight, which was 138 pounds when I was seventeen , I struggled with my weight. No matter how big or small I was or am, I’m the fat girl. And I obsessed over it. Now I realize that some of that was the beginnings and seeds of what could have become a full blown eating disorder if I hadn’t realized and made the conscious choice that no matter how hard it was, I refused to let food and my weight dictate my entire life and take enjoyment out my life. So now, I’m 160 or so pounds and mostly happy with myself for the most part. Even so, I still struggle and while like everyone else I was like, “Alright. Actual big girls modeling clothes for bigger people,” I found that these same ads triggered all those insecurities about my body image and my weight I was. Why? Well, look at the plus sized model ads throughout this entire post.
I know. I know. What’s wrong with them? They’re celebrating curves and thickness and trying to accommodate and welcome bigger woman, right? I should happy about this, right? But the things is I’m not and the reason is that the plus size model and clothing industry still caters to a certain ideal of what a so-called plus sized woman “should” look like. Sure they’re big girls, but all of them have big breast slim waists, flat-ish stomachs, long slender legs, wide hips, slender arms, and not a blemish in sight. They may be bigger, but they all still fit into an acceptable standard of beauty, a standard where big sausage arms, big thighs and short legs, a-shaped bodies with little to no breast, no discernable collar bone, and full faces without a defined jaw line aren’t accepted.
A good article that somewhat draws attention to this is the buzzfeed article This Is What Plus-Size Clothes Look Like On Plus-Size Women. Read the article for yourself, but the gist of the article and pictures are that the plus size modeling industry and the plus size clothing industry is a gimmick to make more money just like everything else in the fashion industry. It’s a way to get those women who probably wouldn’t look twice at designer clothing because it wouldn’t fit to spend their money, and ultimately, for girl like me—who very well may always think of herself as the fat girl no matter how big or small she gets—it’s telling them that their kind of curvy or fat or whatever you want to call still isn’t right and doesn’t fit within the mold of beauty. Women are still being presented with a standard they might not ever be able to attain.
Now, that’s not to say that they’re aren’t designers who really want to cater to the needs of plus sized women, who want to break the beauty mold and accept all woman, all body types, skinny, curvy, not curvy, and somewhere in between all that. However, I am saying that while I think the fashion industry has taken a step in the right direction, it has an incredibly long way to go in embracing more diverse body types.
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