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Confessions of Holly Dae

Hey guys. It’s been a while. I know.

After last year’s disaster with Confessions of a Fat Girl, I decided to take a break. For a straight year and a half, all my efforts had gone into writing and trying to get my books to sell and not only was I burnt out, I was discouraged. I was bitter. I was angry. I was sad. I went into a literal depression. Sales for my books flat lined. I was putting in the work without getting any results from it and so I took a step back.

I learned a lot during that time. The first thing I learned was that I needed to stop writing to sell books and start back writing because it’s what I love to do. And though I loved writing the Confessions saga, I was trying to capitalize off a market or genre that I wasn’t my passion. Sure I was passionate about the things I wrote about, but it wasn’t the genre I wanted to be known for. So while I was taking my step back, I delved back into my old genre. Fantasy along with the romance I had gotten fond of and in the New Adult category that I had been writing in before New Adult was a thing. Yes, it looks like the New Adult boat has sailed. Yes Fantasy and Paranormal with romance seems to have passed, but for the first time in a while, I was writing the story that I wanted to read but couldn’t find and not the one I though everyone else wanted to read.

The second thing I learned was that I have to make this work. For the last year, I’ve been working at Geico, which means my life day in and day out is on the phone. At first it was part time, just to make cash I desperately needed. Then it was full time to pay on my car note. And while at first I thought I could do it, I thought I could work full time, walk into work day in and day out and be content.

Needless to say, I wasn’t.

While there’s absolutely nothing wrong with working eight hours a day, five days a week and sometimes more to put food on the table and pay bills, I was miserable. Some people are fine with it. For some people, my job is their dream job. And not to say I’m not grateful to have that job, but this isn’t how I wanted to spend my life.

After some self reflection, some praying, looking for a sign and finding it in a place I certainly didn’t expect, I decided to give this another shot.This time with money (some) to put into advertising. As far as I’m concerned, I’m working to fund my dream until it can sustain itself and sustain me. And maybe after I’m able to make this work another aspect of my life that I’ve been wanting and longing for will come into fruition. But maybe it’s not time for it yet because if it did happen, I would certainly lose focus on my writing and lose sight of this goal.

Now I’m back with some new content, a new series and a short story under the name H.D. Strozier and I’m ready to ride this horse until it drops dead. Lol. That said, Holly Dae, also known as Lady Dae, is back and hopefully she’s here to stay and make a name for herself.

Thank you for reading.